Back in July I began a quest to get healthy and fit. It was recommended to me to try cross fit at a nearby gym. I did and it changed many ideas I had about myself and exercise. This gym was different from any other gym I'd ever tried. They stressed commitment, a specific eating plan, team work and support.
I began a five week boot camp and in the first two weeks it was so difficult yet I was determined and stuck it out. I hurt all over, had given up eating not only all dairy, grains, beans, sugar and soy but alcohol as well. All I thought about was working out, when to eat so I didn't lose my food when working out and drinking water. I couldn't wear heels, it hurt to do almost everything I normally did and yet I went every day, five days a week for weeks and weeks.
Then I hurt my shoulder. And in my usual style, ignored it. When I finally saw someone about it I started to modify my workouts and do some rehab on the shoulder. It really was not healing so I sadly took a break form cross-fit and went to physical therapy hoping that would take care of the problem.
But when I do something, I do it well. So well in fact the injury was not improving even with medication and therapy. So I decided to leave cross fit and join a regular gym.
I go to the gym five or six days a week and have a trainer two times a week. He's very good and we take extra special care of my stupid shoulder. But I miss cross fit. I miss the one class where we all work our butts off and all of us look like crap when we're done no matter how fit or not we are. I miss hearing the coaches call out our names encouraging us and working with a partner to lift as much as possible. I miss the great big hello when scan my card and the high fives after class.
I miss knowing that for one hour a day I could go, follow directions and just focus on doing what was asked. I kinda liked not having to think for that time.
I need to keep working on my goals, using the tools I learned and moving forward in a new way. Maybe someday I can go back to cross fit but for now I am in the right place.