In the gospel, Mark 10:46-52, Bartimaeus cries out "have pity on me" and then when Jesus asks him what he wants, he says, "I want to see." I think of all the times I have cried those very words. How many times have I cried those words, in way or another, imploring, pleading, begging "please, let me see what I am to do, what am I to say, where am I to go, what is the plan? "
And sometimes, I get an answer and other times I am not so sure. Or, I get an answer, but I don't like it.
Jesus tell Bartimaeus, "Your faith has saved you." Why then, do I struggle with believing that for myself? Jesus saves me from our whatever I am lacking if I believe with the faith I profess I have.
My eternal struggle, is living out in my daily life that truth that it is in me.